My heart is searching for.

God knows what. I know what my heart wants. I just don't know what to do to get to where my heart wants to be. My heart wants 2 things in the world right now. To see God in everything, and for that one special person to come into sight.

Thing is, I can't see that girl. I have no possible way of going to see her, and I just want to see her one day this whole break. Just one. I know that there is much that I can do, but I really just want to see her smile one time this break, and I'll be perfectly happy.

My heart wants to feel that. I feel like that's the one thing that will make this break perfect for me is just to see her smile one time. I love seeing people smile, but something about her smile brightens my days. I see many things in her smile that I don't see in most people's smiles.

It feels like my heart races a million miles an hour when I see that smile too. It never feels so good as when her smile crosses my eyes. So, all I want for Christmas? Her smiling face. That's literally all I want for Christmas this year.

I think that there is a reason I feel so strongly right now. I can't very well tell you what that reason is, because I myself don't even really know, but I know that there is some reason that my heart has just jumped. Everything my heart loves, has grown to be more than it was previously. I love God and Jesus a lot more because of the great service we had. It really opened my eyes. I love football more just because I know that through that, people can see God's impact on my life. It also gives me a chance to just show people Christ's love. My feelings for this girl have grown also. I just see the Lord shining through her like a magnifying glass.

I can honestly say that I have never felt this strongly about someone and the Lord at one time. It's usually either one or the other. Now it's a whole new experience, because I am experiencing both at the same exact time. I think this is amazing because when you are seeing the Lord in it, the feeling is so much greater than you could ever expect.

Aight, I've been up all night, so I'm just gonna stop writing now. Love you guys bye! Merry Christmas
TJ