Comfort and fear

Lately, I've felt both scared for a few things, and comfortable for things. Scared because, I, unlike a lot of people seem to think, and am very awful at telling people what I really think and feel. I will say that I think that I definitely need to stop being so scared. I need to stop caring what everyone who is on this earth thinks about what I have to say. People who are of this earth can do absolutely nothing to harm my emotional or spiritual state.

For some reason, I seem to be unable to control my feelings. They haven't changed at all, and now I'm at this point to where everyone knows how I feel and who it's about. I wouldn't be surprised if she knew, but wasn't telling me.

My question is, why do I let fear paralyze myself? What reason do I have for letting the things of this earth keep me from telling people how I really feel about them. I can tell pretty much anyone else, but I for some reason can not tell the person who the feelings are for about them. What is fear anyway? 

Fear is defined as

1.

a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.

2.

a specific instance of or propensity for such a feeling:

3.

concern or anxiety; solicitude:

4.

reverential awe, especially toward god.

5.

that which causes a feeling of being afraid; that of which a person is afraid

Things that are common that I can take away from most of these is that it's a condition. In other words, it's a mindset. We can control all of the fear that we feel. We never really think of it this way, but I think that if I can at least fake it for long enough, then it will become second nature to not be afraid of things.

The only thing we have to fear is God. God's power to judge us is a very, very scary thought. I don't know why I would want to be afraid of the things on this planet. I'm very tired of being scared. What is the point of fear? Why are so quick to let it control us and not act in the way that might be better for our relationships? There is nothing to be afraid of. Heck, "Do not fear" is the most said command in the Bible. Time to start taking it literally again. 

Comfort is defined as

1.

relief in affliction; consolation; solace: Her presence was a comfort to him.

2.

a feeling of relief or consolation: Her forgiveness afforded him great comfort.

3.

a person or thing that gives consolation: She was a great comfort to him.

4.

a cause or matter of relief or satisfaction: The patient's recovery was a comfort to the doctor.

5.

a state of ease and satisfaction of bodily wants, with freedom from pain and anxiety: He is a man who enjoys his comfort.

I don't know about you guys, but I think fear can cause people to become comfortable. It can also be a motivation to get away from comfort. I think that if when I was scared of something, but instead of letting it paralyze me, use it to fuel the things that I want to do, then I would be perfectly comfortable with being uncomfortable. I think that is the one thing that I need to get through my head. Comfort is nothing more than me being scared to do something.

I don't know, but I'm sick of being the guy who is scared to do something. I just think that I'm too comfortable with not stepping out of where I feel safe. I'm sick of being safe. Screw. Safety. I can not describe how sick of being safe I am. There is nothing more sickening in life. Trust me. There is nothing that can tear people down.

I started writing this last night. Forgot my internet crashed. Haha

I love you guys
TJ