Lead Me Back To the Cross.

Lately I have felt as if something hasn't been quite right. I've been worn down, and haven't really felt like I know how to love in the way that Jesus wants me to. I also just read a post from a dear friend that is pretty much describing how I want to live my life. Reading her joy in the ministry that we have been blessed in doing , and seeing that she has been going through an even more trying time than I ever have, and seeing that she is getting through it just fine makes me want to do that too. I wish I could say I was doing well, but things are not all right.

After reading my friends post, I just felt the Lord telling me that it's time for me to stop being so passive. In everything. When it comes to loving the 8th graders that I see every day, or even talking to them. That is a constant struggle for me though. (side note, I did meet 2 kids, one named Jacob, and one named Humda, or however you spell it haha) I hope that I can get more time to chill with the 8th graders in the morning, and love them like I should have been for the past few months. The Lord has also told me it's time for me to stop letting myself get mad at the kids on my soccer team when they give me all the crap in the world. I can just hear Jesus saying, "Forgive them, for they know not what they do" He's forgiven me, so why can't I bring myself to do the same for them?

I need to spend some time alone with the Lord, and let myself be lead by Him. This is the only other thing I know I need to do. I've been trying to go through my life in every single way without Him, and it's really starting to kill me. I wanna pray for everyone else, but right now my prayer needs to be that God can still be My God. He is the only one who can bring me back, and I need to step out in faith and let Him do so.

I also wanna ask that you guys pray for me. With all that going on. I have to leave school early this year for Work Crew! I'm excited, but I need the Lord to get me through the rest of the year first.


If I said I loved you guys, I don't know if it'd be true, so thanks for reading..

TJ