Let's see how this goes.

One thing I'm trying to start doing is put some blog posts down where I don't think of them before I write them. I just get on the page, and start typing. I believe that I tend to edit my posts a little too much because I'm afraid of what's going to be said about them. I think that if I really just let my fingers do the work, then I won't have to worry about it, beause what I want said will be said, whether or not it seems like a good idea. Of course, the hard part is still going to try to keep on a topic. Well, here goes...

Today had to be the most pointless day of school ever. We were going to school at regular 7:30 time (for us Burton kids) and getting out of school at 12:10. 3 hours earlier than if we  were to go on a regular schedule. In all truthfulness, Roanoke County is too bent on trying to get every single second of school we can muster out of Central Office. I don't see the point in bringing kids to school to let them out 3 hours early, and without lunch. That's the part that really got me.

There was a lot wrong with the schedule of us Burton kids already, as if we needed anything more to mess it up. We were going to arrive back at Cave Spring with like half of second period left so that way we could still get at least something done. Ha, yeah right. The busses for all the other schools had all come, loaded up and left and all that was left were the people from Cave Spring who couldn't drive. We were left at Burton for an extra 15-20 minutes before both the busses finally showed up and we were allowed to finally leave.

We got back to Cave with about 5 minutes left in Second period. I didn't see the point in making a bee-line for my classroom, so me being me, I sauntered around the circle we have that goes around the school looking into almost every classroom to see if I knew someone that was going to be in there. On the whole way around, I did see my good friends Zack, and Tanveer. Now, obviously I didn't say much to either one of them because they were in the middle of class, but you know, always good to see someone you're friends with right? Especially if you're doing your best to have as little time in the class as possible.

I get the whole way around the circle til I get to the part that connects to the annex, and I meet up with my friend Allison, who just so happened to be going to the same class, so I wouldn't look like I was trying to skip, or at least skip alone. :) We walked about as slow as possible down the whole annex just trying to waste time and not have to do anything in World History, even though the only thing we're really doing in that class is a project that I'm sure both of us have done in some way or another.

Anyway, I'm not even close to halfway through the day and I'm already sick of talking about school so let's go on to subjects that won't bore the ever living crap out of me while I'm writing about them. :)

My relationship with the Lord recently has been God teach through pretty much everything I see and do in life, and I try and pick up on anything that I possibly can. I don't know really how that works, but it just does, and it seems to be doing wonders for me. God's mainly been using my friends and my brothers and sisters around me to teach the things that he wants. This is great because there is one of my friends who, I feel has been on the same page with me for a while and I learn so much from her that it's unfathomable. Even my teachers have been showing me a few things about Christ that I can't help but pick up on it.

One thing I am awful at is forgiving. Not everyone, just one person. While my reason is justified by the law of society which basically says "When the world turns its back on you, you turn your back on the world". However, this is not how we are called to live life. We are called to be loving, forgiving, and caring to everyone. No matter what they do to us that physically, emotionally, or mentally harms us. This is where a lot of people seem to think we are all on crack, because it's crazy talk to want to love someone who puts us through pain isn't it? Then again, Jesus was able to do it. I don't see why I think I'm so incapable of forgiving this one person for the thing they did, when Jesus was betrayed by one of his friends. One of his disciples. In the end, guess who was still forgiven. The disciple was forgiven of this. He only basically led Jesus to His death by doing this. Jesus still loves that guy just as much as he loves me. I'm no better than the guy who betrayed Him. Judas I think his name was? Oh well, point is, the man basically killed Jesus, and he was forgiven. I was left, and I am not forgiving? Someone, please smack me. No not literally.

I'm glad I had my little rant to Pete and Zack at Wendys like a week and a half ago. Ever since then, I have really learned a few things about myself, and my relationships with people. Even some people who weren't even there have been teaching me a little about myself and about new ways I can try to look at things.

You knew it was coming, time to get my daily rant about this girl out.

I was talking with my friend Eric on the way back from Zack's house, and we got on this subject of me and thie girl. Well, he does know exactly who I'm talking about, but I don't think I'm ready to cross that bridge here yet. Anyway, we were talking, and he told me that the biggest mistake he made with people was trying to date them. It really got me thinking. Have I been trying to just skip to dating this girl, or have I actually been trying to pursue her? The answer truthfully is, neither. I haven't really taken a step in a good direction ever since I really started liking this girl. The only thing I've really done right is just want to follow the Lord every step of the way. I read a post recently by my friend Kendall Chapter 8 of Crazy Love (T-best book I've ever read). That chapter talks with how we always ask God for "traveling safties" or to keep us safe. I see there's a flag on the play with this one.

The penalty for this is being scared. I believe that when we ask for safety, it shows that we are so little in faith the God will provide for us, that we feel as if we need to ask him for it. As the name of Kendall's post was I say "Screw Safety" I'm sick of living a life where I think being safe is the best thing to do. I'm sick of being passive, and not going out, loving people, and showing people what Christ has done for me. One of the best things He's done for me is give me the brothers and sisters that I do have. I kind of want to take a picture around with me, and then when someone asks me what God has actually done for me, I can pull out the picture and be like "God gave me these guys." My brothers and sisters are the biggest blessings I could never ask for.

Today has been a hard day for me with other people. I just don't wanna say why.

<3 The Scientist by Coldplay. Just saying. That song is about as money as Bill Gates's pay check.

This actually felt really good to write. I think that I will definitely continue doing this. I will have some posts that do have a plan that I want to follow. But I think that this is way more fun, and I don't have to worry about keeping the same topic the whole time unlesss I really want to :)

I love you guys. With all my heart
TJ


"Faith without risk is easy" - I heard it from Cailin Smedley at Campaigners. No idea where she got it.