You know those times where everything seems to be in a great big bind? When everything you do just doesn't seem to be right? Those times are very hard to deal with, but then again, they can also be very easy to deal with. It all depends on one thing really. That thing is where you look for help.
As pretty much all of you know, I recently moved, and before that, I didn't know where I would have been going. We looked almost everywhere we could for help. Truthfully, looking back on it now, I don't think I should have waited so long to do so, but I turned to everything else, but nothing worked. This was one of those instances where a gift from God came in a saved me. I had nothing else to turn to, literally. I didn't know if I would have to switch schools, I didn't even know if I was going to be in Virginia anymore! Then, when everything seemed to be at its worst, I finally came to my senses, and put my faith right where it belonged: in the hands of God.
What many people don't get about putting faith in God is that it can't be something you say, you have to actually feel it. When you know that nothing else is going your way, it's a little easier, but when you really think about it, those times aren't around all the time. Back when I first moved to Cave Spring, I had NOTHING! No friends,(so I thought at the time) and no experience with anything there to know what I was getting myself into. It eventually worked itself out. Then I came across this girl. Me and her dated for a while, and then BAM!! It ended, just like that. I was torn to pieces. I was beside myself, and every other metaphor you can think of to describe my insanity about it. That was when I finally decided I was done with the world.
I had heard about Jesus, and all these things He did for me, but the thing I never really understood was how He gave us things. Well, God gave me many friends who knew Him before I did (Eric, Zack, Tanveer). These guys are the ones who ultimately led me to Christ. I didn't know this until I came to Him though. Looking back on that, I took a lot of things for granted, and really, I still do. God gave me so many good friends, and I didn't realize it at first. When I really need them though, they are the first people I go to.
Well, when this situation came up, and this is not to say that they were being bad friends, but it had seemed like the inevitable had came, they failed me. It felt like anyway. I know now that there was nothing they could really do to help me. So I am sorry for thinking that way in the first place. I had nowhere to go, but God. Sure enough another one of His gifts came down, and got my family through it. I now have a home, and while it's not the best, it's better than nothing. He blessed me when I finally surrendered everything to Him, and let Him do His thing. What a remarkable thing to see! All I have to do is let Him take control of my life. I have to let "Jesus take the wheel". Once I did that, almost instantly, an answer was given. Thank the Lord for that! I know that His blessings don't always come immediately, but they do come when we absolutely need them. Who knows, sometimes He can bless us when we don't need them. Maybe He just loves us THAT much!
The biggest thing is, we all get gifts from God, whether or not you follow Christ or not. The thing about it is, do you know where they come from? We all know that things like that don't just come out of nowhere. They have to to brought to you by someone. God is that someone. He does more things in people's lives than anyone could ever imagine. I watched House in biology the other day, and one of the characters, whoever the black one is, was over joyed to just be alive. Being thankful every day that he got to see the light of day. I wish I could honestly say I do that. It's easy to give thanks for my friends, but to thank God every day that He lets me live? Now that would make a really positive TJ. I tend to be positive anyway, but I never wake up, and give thanks to God daily. Even when I do say "Thank You for this day..." I sometimes get the feeling it's more of a tradition to say that, and it's not coming from the heart. I wish I could literally, wake up each day, look into the light, and give thanks for the ability to see it. Feel it, walk in it. Imagine if everyone gave thanks for things like that. The world would be a much happier place.
When times get hard, isn't it nearly impossible to see how you could possibly be blessed? Look at all your friends, look at each day, and look at each breath even, as a blessing. You can't possibly begin to grasp the reality of His gifts until you are really thankful for them. I can say that I honestly thank God, whether or not I know it yet, for each and everyone of my friends. Without them, I wouldn't know God. At all. Without them, I'd still be looking everywhere else. I love each of them dearly, and don't know what I would do without them. Which is another reason I am thankful I didn't move to Washington. My prayer is that I learn to look at each day as a blessing, and that I would not seek out anything but His kingdom. Matthew 6:33 "Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all other things will be added to you"
I mean, if all I have to do is seek God with my whole heart, well that seems easy enough for me. Let's go! The LORD will bless.
"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper and not to harm. Plans to give you hope and a future" - Jeremiah 29:11
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