I've probably already got like 40 posts about this, but I am completely dumbfounded that after the next 26 days of school, I am going to only have two more years of High School left. Some of my best friends, are only going to have 1. That's the really scary part. In just a short month, I'm going to be a junior in high school. No slowing down. I remember fifth grade elementary school "graduation". We sang this song by Vitamin C called...In all the Irony "Graduation" It goes something along the lines of
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
That's only like the first half of the first verse, and I think that I can already basically give you an hour long sermon on what each of these lines mean to me. Lucky enough for you, you will only have to read this. It won't be too long.....I hope.
Well, talking about the rest of my life can't happen, because the rest of my life is a mystery, because I don't know where the Lord is going to take me in my journey with Him. That's one thing that kind of scares me a little bit, because I never know where my next turn is going to be. That's okay with me though, because when I do take these turns, I know that I am going to be held in the hands of the Almighty Father who calms seas, and tears down walls. Nothing can go wrong there. I am very excited for the coming future, but at the same time, I am very sketchy about it. It just doesn't seem real that I'm this close to being in college.
As for where I'm going to be when I turn 25, that;s an even bigger mystery, because again, I never really know what God's going to have in store for me. I know that wherever I end up being at that point in my life, that I will be living my life for Him. I jsut hope that I will be living to bring Him glory since at that point in my life, it's going to be all about finishing college, working, getting a house, and all that. I just want to do things the way He wants them done, and not the way that I want them done. So, it really doesn't matter to me where I am when I turn 25. I just want to be known asa someone who is living their life fully for the God that sent His Son to die for us.
As for the next two lines, since they basically have the same meaning, I used to think that everything would be the same throughout school, but boy was I dead wrong. Things got severely different since I started high school. I never thought that I would be wanting so much to know the God that created me. I never thought I'd be sitting in Mill Mountain Coffee, writing a blog post that may or may not even be read. I never even thought that I would ever be playing Varstity football, or soccer in any form. That's the beautiful thing about this life. It changes, and it gets better with it. Yes, sometimes it's very hard. It's so worth it though.
More so for the seniors that are graduating, when they do leave this year behind. They are never going to be able to go back to high school. No matter what they do, they're never going to be able to repeat a year. What they have done, they have done. They hopefully know that they are going to a good college for them. soon to be the leaders in this world. It's probably scarier for every senior right now than it is for me. I just have a summer, then it's, as they say "Back to the old grind". They aren't going back to the same things. they are going somewhere to where they will only have the things they brought with them, and maybe the friends that are going there with them. They also will hopefully have the confidence that comes with knowing Christ. That is probably going to be one of the only things that I will have to hold onto when I get to that point.
For the last line, we certainly are all on a different track. Once the seniors of 2011 leave, they are all going their own ways, and will only be able to get together at reunions, or when they are all in town from college for breaks. It's going to be the hardest things for that, because I have always been kind of shy, and I am going to have to make a lot of friends really fast because I can't stand not having people to hang out with each and every day I get up.I just know that even then, once the seniors left last year, the tracks changed on me. There was no more Adam, there was no more Dan. Most of my friends who were seniors last year were pretty much going to their own thing. I only had a few of them left, and then I have my friends that are either leaving this year, next year, or with me. That's a great group of people, thankfully. I don't know where I would have been if I didn't have these people to hang out with. I really don't think there would have been a blog at all. Though I didn't know these people used any form of it, I know that they would probably still at least read it. It's just great to know that I have some of the best friends in the world.
The most amazing thing is the fact that after these years in high school are over, these friends that I have made are not going to just disappear. The people I have grown to know and love will still be there. They may not be just a 5-10 minute drive away, but they will still be the people I know that I can look to for the things that I need to talk about.So while we are on a different track from the people who are in different grades from us, those tracks can sometimes lead them right back to where they come from. In some cases, it's right back where they belong. There is no better feeling than knowing that just because you have a lot of people thatk know Christ, those peopl can and will become some of your best friends, and these friendships really do last forever. It's the best. Nothing can compare to that feeling, because we may or may not all go to the college we 'want' to go to, but we will always be able to say that we had good friends in High School, because Christ was with us every step of the way.
Just one of those thoughts that I have in the midst of all the things that go on.
Love you guys.
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